proud to be....

This wasn't just an ordinary university for ordinary people... this is a university where, students could build their dreams despite poverty or lack of money... this is a university which shapes the minds of every individual to become aware of the present status of the society and let them see the truth. this is a university that enhances the potentials of every students... this is a university where i came from..

early this morning, i went to school to get my evaluation form for graduation... as i walked, i looked intently to the students passing by and to the main building, seeing it differently. for the four years of my stay here, i can say that i have appreciated somehow my school. Although, more often, it makes me feel awkward when somebody asks me where am i studying especially if he is from a prestigious or known school... oftentimes, i am thinking what if i studied in UP or Ateneo? there'll be more opportunities.. and many will say "ahhh..." whenever i would tell them my school...

but then, i just realized that, maybe school would help especially when looking for jobs, but it is still up to a student how he will make his way to succeed...

though we may not have so much facilities and complete equipment, though we may not have Harvard graduate professors, though we may not have a big parking lot , though we don't have big and air conditioned classrooms, though we may not have experienced what other students from private schools experience, though most of us lack in money, i am still proud that i belong to this university...

this is perhaps "an ordinary university" to some... seat of activists, or a university for the poor... yes these are all true. but proudly i would say that my university is the hope especially of the unfortunate people who still wants to continue studying despite financial problems.. this university made me a better person and encouraged me to persevere in life. it may not have provided me all my needs as a student but that made me more persistent in seeking for other ways where i would also learn.. i'm thankful because our university's weaknesses teach every student to innovate and gain knowledge at the same time.

however, the big chance that our university gives to the less-fortunate is slowly turning down because of the budget cut for education annually. this year, 40.2 million.. and how will a state university like us survive if the 52 million budget given by the government every year would be lessened? what will happen to the school? more dilapidated facilities? no more additional equipment? no more books to be used? no more comfortable classrooms? but what is so saddening about this is the thought that students are the first ones to suffer.

why do they need to cut the budget for education after putting it as the first priority in the budget share? why do they alot big money for some unimportant stuffs? why waste money for people who are not doing their job well? why, instead of helping out of school youths, the government is giving away money to the officials who are just seating on their couches doing nothing, waiting for the next election and then make their way again to fame? but the bottom line is still: why do they deprive the poor their right to study?

this is very true of our country. and this is the reason why we are not attaining progress despite the many resources available but are not used wisely.. if only all youths would be given the chance to go to school, maybe the country could produce more brilliant graduates... or perhaps, we could have better politicians.. well, i am not saying that our government officials are not good.. of course they won't be elected if they are not, unless they paid for it.. they are really smart people i believe. because they know how to get money then use it without the people knowing it. i am just wondering why they don't get embarrassed with what they are doing.. they get money without even working hard for it???

this country is so pathetic because of some people, mostly are intellectuals but just use their brains to fool their countrymen.. but despite all these, i still love this country and wants to contribute for change... this is just one of things i realized when i entered my school.. and i am grateful truly that my eyes where opened when i entered this university.

nice experience!!

well... being in the outside world is really a nice exerience... maybe tough at times but if you'll just realize and know, what we are doing every day of the week is a lesson we could cherish and keep for future use...

i have spent months in my on the job training and i think i'm learning well... yeah! this is really different when you are just inside the classroom, listening to the teacher and unfortunately they are sometimes absent and don't attend the class...

i am applying the little things that i learned during the past years and still continue to study what i need to learn... the years of studying may not be enough for you to become an "all around" person, who knows everything. and still, it is very true that experience is the best teacher...

i have only few days left here in SUMMIT Media.. and i'm proud to say that for that 100 hours of my stay here, i've learned a lot... even to my first OJT at Manila Standard Today where i spent the other 100hrs....

maybe some of my classmates were complaning of their work and their bosses... but then i realized that if you really love your work, or even just try to love it, nothing is harder... all work will be finished easily with a smile of course on your face. =)

i hope that when i already graduated, i could look for a better job... but i'm still planning to take masteral either in UP or Ateneo if fate would grant me... but if not, better luck next time...if it's God's will, why not??!! but as of now, i'm still waiting for the result of our evaluation... i won't graduate if they found any defficiency in my grades.. duh!!! and we're still working on our thesis... waahh.. that's hard!!!! and we're still in the process of data gathering... goodluck to us!! =)

alive again???

waaahh..... four months have passed... well... uhm... got a lot of experiences, happenings.. lessons and all sort...

i've been very busy... as usual... and don't have time to write here or i just forgot i have a blogspot???

well... the past months were really extraordinary...

september- we won the cheering competition during the university intramurals... that was really amazing!!! thank God for crowning our efforts with so much success... the whole college was very proud of us, although there were little controversies.. but i believe, we deserve the prize..

october- 1st semester ended. vacation grande??? nope... coz i spent more of my vacation doing and working for our final requirements... that was really exhausting... i wrote.. uhm... 17 news articles within three days... well it was a punishment coz i didn't pass even one. glad my professor still gave me a grade of 1.0 even though i already passed it late!!! haha..

november- a very memorable month...

we don't have classses anymore.. only two subjects, internship and thesis... but we don't go to school...

we went to Subic for the 20th advertising congress.. we were student volunteers there... that was tiring but it was really fun and exciting!!! you know, dealing with famous names in the advertising and marketing industry.. interacting with known people, the elites and the socialites... meeting new friends... and of course, visiting a very solemn and beautiful place (which i happened to visit 11 years ago...) that was all worth it...

and now... i'm on my OJT at the Manila Standard... still looking for another one to spend the half of 200 hours...

and now, there are 18 days to go before christmas... sort of planning for christmas parties... when and where are we going to spend it... but i hope on december 25... i'm at our house at the province spending the yuletide season with my family...

experience: the best teacher!

vacation grande....

hmmm... should i say "i'm thankful because we don't have classes for six consecutive days?" or "i'm thankful because we escaped the midterms that we were supposed to take?"

honestly, i'm truly grateful because classes were suspended yesterday and i got enough time to sleep... we were on the shooting of lastikman last thursday. we were dancing there, acting a little bit... too tiring! the foods were, uhm... i don't like it anyway but since we were hungry, we have no choice but to eat it. we already finished at almost 6 in the morning and i got home at 7... oh my God... i was really tired and sleepy yesterday. and if ever there were classes, i could not manage to attend not only because i was too tired, but i did not study for our exam and i could not take it if i got a low score...

well... i just realized that it's too hard really, to earn money... yaah! we were paid... not enough for what we did... or perhaps for production staffs, it is...since we were just there dancing, acting like back ups, and all that... but for newcomers like us, the job was difficult.. some of us worried because we thought that the shooting will only be until afternoon. we did not expect that it will last until friday morning...

but then, it was an experience... dealing with some artists like vhong, iya, roxanne, jake, vanna and the directors and staffs of lastikman... it doesn't happen everytime. it was an oppurtunity. vhong was there teaching us the stunts he knows and how to execute it the right way. iya was also there cracking jokes and vanna was talking to us asking for the steps (because she was abpout to act as the squad captain)...it's nice knowing that people who are famous like them deal with just ordinaries like us... i consider it as a privelege because not everybody were given the chance to experience that. well, i'm not into idolizing those people, and i'm not a fan too.

however, what we've done is something to be treasured because it will be helpful in the future...

long silence

how about a month not writing on my blog spot?

weird....

I've been so, so busy this past few weeks... sort of having an everyday training and practice of routines for the upcoming cheering competition...

kinda working on news articles for our newspaper...

but the funny thing is, I'm not doing my school works that are already piled up...

there are lots of homeworks- news articles that i need to write, but i'm not working with it...

i just ignore them and think that i can finish or do it once i find a time... like today, (since there are no classes because of the typhoon.)

sometimes, i was so beleaguered by many things and i don't know what will i prioritize... perhaps, my classmates and even my friends are thinking why i commit and commit but don't work on my acads....

maybe, they get annoyed with me when i tell stories that i find it difficult to deal with things or to balance them... and when there are group works, i complain and tell them that i'm too busy so better not give me a hard job 'coz i can't do it or finish it either...

well... i am just assuming that they do... but i hope, they don't...

sometimes, we find it difficult to tell people why are we doing such things. better be silent or just show them you are happy and contented with what you are doing...

i find pleasure when i'm busy... it gives me a lot of satisfaction and it makes me forget lonely moments that i must not think of...

not this time...

"siguro nga ito ang unang sulat dito na tatagalugin ko...
ngunit ito ay may dahilan...
may malalim na kahulugan..."

minsan iniisip mong wala na ang lahat. marami kang ginagawa. aral. praktis. sulat. wala ka ng oras para isipin pa ang mga bagay-bagay... ngunit sa kabila nito, may mga pagkakataon pa rin na kung saan hindi mo maiiwasang mag-isip. hindi lang ng mga tungkol sa paaralan. ngunit sa iba pang dimensyon ng iyong buhay. sa kailaliman ng iyong puso...

kagabi....

oo nga... kagabi, kung saan ang isipan ko'y binalot ng mga alaala. ang utak ay punung-puno ng tanong. mga katanungan na kahit saang lupalop ng mundo mo hanapin ay hindi mo malalaman ang sagot... pagod man ang katawan sa maghapong pagsayaw, ngunit mas lalong napapagod ang puso at utak na ginugulo lamang ng isang pangalan...

hindi sapat na gawin ang lahat ng maaring gawin para hindi sya maalala. ngunit sa aking paghiga, ang mga matang ito'y di maipikit kahit pa pilitin. ang utak ay lumilipad sa lugar kung saan siyay naroon. nag-iisip. naluluha. ngunit walang magawa.

"bakit kung kailan nakakalimutan mong isipin ang isang tao, saka naman sya magbabalik sa buhay mo?"

nakakapagod. ngunit bakit ganon? alam mo ng nasasaktan ka, pero tuloy ka pa rin? dahil ba dun ka masaya? kahit alam mong ni minsan ay di nya pinaramdam na mahalaga ka?

sa simpleng salita napapangiti ka? ngunit sapat na ba ito para magpatuloy ka?

kung maaari lang humiling na sana'y bumilis ang panahon para malaman kung anong mangyayari sa hinaharap...
kung maaari ko lang sanang mabasa kung ano ang iniisip nya...
kung maaari lang sanang sabihin sa kanya...
kung maaari lang sanang mangyari ang lahat ng ito...

busy.... busyhan...

4th year days so tiring.... waaaahhhhh.... i really don't know what to do.... kinda busy.....

i have a report tomorrow... I'm not ready yet... no visuals, and i haven't read anything about it...

i still have an assignment to work with...

i need to write more than five articles... am not sure but i think it's more than five... and i'm not in the mood to write even one... don't have any facts so, how will i write??? hmmmm....

sometimes, i think that I'm so irresponsible for not taking things so seriously.. i envy my friends. they always have assignments. they always have projects. they always do what our professors tell us to do... they always beat the deadline. but me, well... i always set things aside. easy easy often... not thinking of the consequences for my laziness...

i can't manage my time. and again, i don't know why... i'm always busy but i don't know if i will benefit for what i am doing...

i go to school every morning even if our class is still on the afternoon. and i always go home late.. i don't have time to unwind... don't have time for bonding with my high school friends... dont have time for myself... don't have enough sleep...

but......

this afternoon, we released our newspaper... we gained good feedbacks for a job well done... and most, our dean congratulated us....

sometimes, even if you experience all those things... hardships... lonely moments... sleepless nights... you always reap a very good harvest... and that's what i got... what we got...

for all our endeavors... for always being busy, ignoring all the assignments and projects... we achieve something... and it's worth a million achievement for making every students informed... for sharing what you know... and for making our professors so proud of us...